Rock Star

Contrary to the title of this post, I’m definitely not of “rock star” status yet. A week ago I released my second novel, Never Fall, which is the second installment of my Faithfully Yours series. At the same time, I made my first book, Never Let Go, available for free for five days. The idea was to have the first book easily available to those who wanted to read Book Two but hadn’t yet read Book One.

Let’s be honest-the free book flew off the shelves, which made me giddy. The number of people who snatched it up surprised me. Sales on the second book? That also threw me. They sucked, truthfully. I was disappointed and really had a “lightbulb” moment about the fact that this indie author industry is a tough nut to crack. I’m not giving up, though there have been times over the past week where I said, “What’s the point?” I can’t compete with authors who have more money, time, experience, and talent than me.

But I love writing, and for the few people who DO enjoy my books, I will carry on. As of tomorrow, I will have been a published author for a year. One might say, “Wow, a whole year?” or, conversely, “Look at everything I’ve done in just one year.” It depends on your perspective. The negative side of me says, “I should have a much bigger audience by now.” But the logical, patient side says, “I’ve learned a lot in the past year, have made a lot of friends, and I’ve become a better writer.” ¬†Obviously, my confidence is better when I have the positive outlook.

Unfortunately I’ve been gifted with a pessimistic viewpoint. (I get it from my dad, but don’t tell him I said that). When I see other new authors post about their successes – pictures of their Amazon rankings, Tweets from readers, fan-made teasers – I feel like a nobody. This is me being very honest. It’s not that I don’t want them to succeed, trust me. These are my friends and I truly believe they deserve it. But sometimes I feel like a beat-up Pinto next to a sleek Ferrari. Will I ever be that Ferrari?

The answer is “I don’t know,” but I sure plan on trying. Even if it takes me years and several more books, I will strive to find an audience for my books. Those who have read my books have sung my praises. They believe in me. So I have to believe in me. The insecure 12-year-old girl inside me needs to take a hike so I can stand strong and show myself.

Thank you for reading. If you like sweet rock star romance, my books are available at, links are below.

Never Fall (Faithfully Yours #2):

Never Let Go (Faithfully Yours #1):

Being Brave

Why is it that some people just naturally draw attention and others (like myself) have to fight to be noticed? I suppose it has a lot to do with having the right balance of charisma and confidence. My husband oozes confidence and has one of those personalities that lights up a room. I’m, well, the opposite. I tend to be insecure and shy. Growing up, I was the kid who wanted to hide in the back of the classroom. Oral reports scared me to pieces. To this day, I’m still frightened by public speaking.

I’ve found, however, that in order to sell a book successfully, I need to be more like my husband. Other authors-ones who are bestsellers-have advised me to “put myself out there” and not be afraid to self-promote. They’re right. Many new authors are promoting like crazy, and as a result, they’re getting a lot of attention and probably more sales. Hmm…I should learn something from this. It’s very hard not to compare yourself with others in this business of selling books, and I believe observing how others achieve success can be helpful.

One part of me wants to curl up in a ball and whine about how my shyness has hampered my marketing efforts. I can be a big complainer (just ask my husband), and I can do pity parties like nobody else. But you know what? Feeling pathetic and stuck in a rut isn’t going to help me sell my books. My first book, Never Let Go, has been out for almost a year, which in indie book publishing, is ancient. It’s collecting cobwebs. Naturally sales have slumped since last spring. Is it because readers have moved on? Yes. Is it because I haven’t been promoting it the best I could? Also yes. It’s up to me.

Next Tuesday (November 17th), my second novel comes out and you’d better believe I will market that baby as much and as often as possible without a care as to what people think of me. Well, I’ll try not to be a pest about it. But if some people are annoyed, so be it. I’m trying to make this my part time job. I’m trying to prove to my husband that this is more than a hobby. So instead of sitting back and crying into my coffee about how all the other new authors are doing better than me (yes, I’ve had those days), I’m going to force myself to follow through on that advice – to “put myself out there” – and share my writing with people, not hide in the back of the classroom.

Never Fall, my second Faithfully Yours book, about a California girl who falls in love with a London-based rocker, hits the Amazon Kindle store November 17th.